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This song came out of the time when I was as strung out as I’ve ever been because I was in a very stressful job – 2 jobs, actually – and it felt like they were trying to kill me. I held everything together for about a month. I had even decided not to do any music until a hire for one of the 2 jobs was complete, but that lasted about two weeks before I completely, utterly fell apart in the middle of my living room rug one night in the middle of December. I realized that I had been carrying too much … and as I journaled about it, I likened it to carrying way too many dirty dishes … and dropping them. Having worked in restaurants, I knew how that sounded and how oddly satisfying it could be. Shortly afterwards, I was traveling home from the winter holidays in Europe, and we were flying north over the pole. There was literally a supermoon on my right and the beautiful setting sun on the left, and somehow the beauty of both helped settle my mind and heart … and that’s where the bridge came from. It’s a song about not carrying sh*t around and trying to be “strong” when you really need to put stuff down.

I love love love the groove my producer, Kenny Schick, put on this song. It helped me realize the direction my music is now going … which involves at least one electric guitar and a good overdrive pedal.

In addition to songwriting, lead vocals, and writing the harmony vocals, I performed backing vocals on this song. Kenny Schick, my producer, also sang backing vocals and played or programmed all of the instruments. Kenny recorded his parts at Basement3Productions in Nashville, Tennessee, and I recorded my parts in March 2022 with Steven Glaze at ToneFreq Studio in San Jose, California.